'You forget what sort of person you are' - Maxwell details his battle with depression
Glenn Maxwell has shed light on his tough battle with mental health issues, which kept him out of the game for the majority of Australia's international summer.
The enterprising all-rounder complained about mental exhaustion and excused himself from competitive cricket midway through his team's T20I series against Sri Lanka.
Fresh from a sensational 28-ball 62 that routed the tourists, Maxwell hastily took a break to help himself brave the mental demons.
"It can certainly wear you down when you're putting on a mask of being an international, domestic, whatever cricketer you are. When you're putting that on every day for people to see in public, it can really weigh you down and you can forget who you are, and forget what sort of person you are," he told cricket.com.au in a chat.
Maxwell had earlier faltered amidst the burden of expectations during Australia's World Cup campaign when he managed a paltry sum of 177 runs from 10 outings.
He soon sought Moises Henriques' help, who himself had struggled with depression in the past.
"Moises was one of my first phone calls after I got the courage to pick the phone up and actually talk to someone," Maxwell said.
"He has been amazing in that sort of space and he was able to talk me through what I was going to be feeling over the first few weeks."
"Not everyone goes through the same sort of feelings, but I found he was someone who I was able to confide in and talk to about pretty much everything that was on my mind and what I was going through. And he actually made me smile for the first time in a while, even if it was a joke at our expense and the way we were feeling."
Maxwell clawed his way back into the mainstream by returning to captain Melbourne Stars in the Big Bash League. He was able to regain his fine touch with the bat and conjured 398 runs at a healthy strike rate of 148.51 as his side finished as the competition's runners-up.
"I almost felt like [captaincy] was an outside interest, like it was something to distract me away from my own game," he claimed.
"I wasn't just thinking, 'everyone's waiting for me to do something here', or 'everyone's putting pressure on me about what I did during the World Cup or what I did over here, what I did for Victoria'. It just felt like I wasn't overindulging in something that was just my game."
"I'm a lot more open in the way I communicate with people," he further elaborated.
"I don't beat around the bush. I make sure I'm 100 per cent honest with everyone. I want people to know exactly how I'm feeling and that's not being brash, that's not being over the top. It's just being honest, so they can be honest back to me as well."